Tear ='(

Dear Tear, please go away.. i could stand it anymore. i tired to cry. after one by one come pass by me. it hurts me, it cause me a lot of pain. what should i do to make it go away? after my result, my phone, then my life, then my application rejected, then, what will be the next? it does not mean that i could not accept what had happen, but i just could not stand it anymore.. shoo shoo..go away please. don't push me anymore. the more it come, more bad i become. duhh --' its hard to handle myself. it already out of control. my dad said its my fault? is it? every word that he said make me hurt BADLY. =( maybe i put a lot of hope on this application. maybe my dad is right, it is my fault. i take it easy. already try my best  to keep my tear inside me, but, i am no longer cant stand it after i know that my application been rejected. Like A big ROCK just falling on my head. +_+

Tried to keep it, now i tell u why.. (-_____-")

When a guy said that they will change,, MAYBE they will do, but they still being a guy.. =) until now, that is the way i could understand.
*this is what i post on my FB*


Just last 2 night i want to think of, good things about you. n make my heart wont hate u anymore. but u i really2 cant deny it now, cuz u already cross the line. now i could see ur 'Belang' already. all the things u do, is same as i expected. some thing is in my mind said that u would live even without me. now, its all true. U know why i dont want to say what is ur wrong? Cuz there are plenty ok, 'PLENTY' of reason. n now, i will tell u a FEW.


First, when it come to COUPLE, fear to the Lord automatically becomes stronger ! yess, i know i am not a prefect n not really2 good. this feeling came over me, n cover all the feeling.. n some had say that texting something nonesence is 'SIN'.
Do u hv think about it? ask the same question everyday which is u already know my schedule. that is nonsense if i am not mistaken. 2 thing we done wrong here n 1 more is sin for me.
1 - waste money
2 - waste time
3 - the sin is on me " i could not describe it cuz, there are some thing that i not very sure of, but i sure that sin is on me."

Second, the reason is still fresh from oven.. cuz,, i saw just now, that u still have time to communicate with 'her' even u said u still in love with me, n u said u want to do anything to try to get me back to u. *which is i could not see your loyalty* If continuously u use this way, REMEMBER, until my seven or more offspring u will not get a WOMEN.


Thirdly, do u remember that u like to test me? which part of ur test to me that i fail? i dont know, but i am sure that i 'pass' it alot.. n do u ever think this is as a "TEST" for u from me? huhh.. if this is a test from me,, that means u already fail my TEST..


Forth is also fresh from oven, which is, u tell ur 'workmate' about me? n ask her to ask me didnt u? What is going on ur mind? u want to everyone to know? want me to tell everybody that why i hate u? i ask u, DO U WANT ME TO RETYPE WHAT U SENT MSG TO ME WHICH IS SHOW YOUR ATTITUDE ?


the Fifth is as i expected, u not being u. after u broke, then u show who u are. especially on ur word.


this is the few that i would like to say.. the others reason make me sick to said about it.

*what my bad in this relationship is, i am stubborn. stubborn*
ya ya.. i know, u also do the good thing like u be patient with me a lot n try to impress me. thanks. but trust me, u do it in the wrong way. maybe it true what u had said to me, 'that u are wrong to know/couple with me'.
sorry for u. u do not know anything what i had sacrifice for you. its cause me pain, but i keep it as a secret. =)

Enough already, now i really2 hate u, n i cant deny that anymore. find your way, n move on.
P/S : So Sorry If I Had Ever Being Mean To You.

Must Move On....

We Must Move On
From,
Asking GOD To Take Care Of The Things That Are Breaking Our Hearts
To,
Praying About The Things That Are Breaking HIS Heart

Oh My Lord, I am Seek for your Forgiveness n I am Sorry For What I Had Done..

No More Us

okeyy,, topic for today is about me. yeahh, no longer US or HIM. now just me again =)
btw, sorry. forget to say HEYYY EVRYBODY =D haha *macam laa ramai sgt baca blog aku.. tentttttt.. whos care? HAHA okey, let move on.. today im single again. whyy?? Because.... there are plenty of reason.. one of it is there are not advantage for us to be together.. u must feel weird or think im bad ist?? nvm, think what u want to think. its up to u.. Cuz, i know this is better rather then im pretend that im okey n pretend i love him. Im sorry, i didnt mean to hurt anybody. but this is the best way, i could not love him like i used to. so, its best solution is, me and him should move on our own way. we are to good for each other.. that all i can say bout this topic.

Stress

kau pernah rasa stress x? ni version bila kau tahan,, hati n kepala kau jd dupdap2 mcm org nk mati kea, takut kea.. tu la yg aku rasa skrg. benggang yg tertanam kat hati ni rasa mcm nk meletup.. nak mara x bole, nk mengamuk plak tp xde org aku nk jd mangsa aku. nk menangis, tp mcm x larat. huhh.. pity me. rsa sikit LOSER kat situ. ahaha.. LAME ! duhhh --" mcm mn ehh nk hilangkan rasa ni? grrrr..

Belog Saya

HAHA.. okey.. bila tgk belog aku sendri da mcm belog gay. knp? tah laa.. belog org suma,, ceh ceh x bleh blahh, xtahan hebat2 dia.. Up to date betul, x mcm saya. pemalass... ZZzzzzzz.. * cakap la apa punn, mls dgr. hahaha...
apa2 pun. terima kasih pada yg rajin baca belog yg x reti2 nk update mcm brg tuan empunyaa belog ni =D sbb aku akn pakai sesuatu brg tu smpai jahanam baru aku tukar, kalo x, mmg wallahualam.. HAHA =D

maaf la, malas tu mmg sifat saya. dan saya bahagia dgn sifat saya.. hehe.. =)

ThingS..

things why i dont like you to know the new girl. Cuz u dont know her. it can be a thousand reason to be or not to be with her. i know u keep saying u are mine, but things is people dont. they do understand, but they wont just give up, especially girl. yeahh, i know a lot of girl who wont even freakin care if someone have their own or not. if they think, they want it, they will have it. that is 1. Secondly,, its you. you didnt tell me who is she. i dont even care if u want to know thousand of new girl, but the thing is, u must tell me, or atleast story bout her to me, when u know her, when you start chat with her.. do as same the way i do to you. cant u think, if i do just like the way you do? if you ask me, who is 'he'? i will said, friend of me. that all. what would you feel? i had told you before,tell me a story about anything. what should i said if my friend ask me, "hey, your bf comment with som1 bla bla bla.. did you know who is she?" What suppose i answer that question? do you want me to say "huhh?? i dont know about it" ist? cuz i hate dat answer. atleast i can tell them, "that is one of his best friend from bla bla bla".. Can u understand what im just telling u? anyway,, i just said that i "dont like", not "i hate", means you still can friend with her,, i dont mine as long as you tellin me =) we share our stories remember? now, this shits things will over here. no need to repeat it again.

P/S : I love you =)