No FEELings.. huhh??

Hye There,,

refer to da title,, i wanna say dat, i hv been in dat situation.. huhh,, its such a.........

Urm,, i think there is no word for me to describe da feeling..

hv u been there?? it is BLANK n EMPTY..!!

If theres been somtin happen but u cant say anything coz u didnt hv feelings..

u dont know wat to do,, do u need to laugh?? do u need to cry??

There is one day dat i has been scold my my teacher, i laugh..

people look at me with a weird faces..

it look like i do somtin bad..

the thing is, i dont understnd wat im suppose to do..

i juz same like stupid people or may be seen as crazy..(i think)

my attitude, same like evry day..

i never feel down or sad..

until my 'geek' friend asking me..

'Tasya, knp kau slalu gelak bile kne mara?

knp kau x sensitive dgn prasaan kwn kau? kau xpena rasa sedih ke?'

i say

'Aq x tau lahh.. tp yg aq tau, aq mmg nk tergelak dgn spe2 yg mara aq..

n aq xde plak rasa sedih.. n pasal sensitive,, knp aq perlu sensitive??'

then my friend ckp

'Ohh,, kesian kat kau.. aq rasa lahh,,

kau ni xde feeling ahh sbb kau sendiri x sensitive dgn kwn kau..

kau xnk tau ke? prasaan ni indah tau.. bile kau da dpt satu ari nnt..

bru kau tau langit tu de pelangi ke x..'

aq yg bengap lg banggang ni punye lahh xphm pe yg kwn aq merepek..

Then i think,, until when i want to be like dis??

so, i pray n pray n i prayer dat i will hv feeling to feel..

n now its been approve it..

i hard to learnnn dis feelin..

it suck bcoz

i hv to feel angry, sad, uncomfortable..etc..etc..

Actually it is WONDERFULL but in da same time its S**K!!

the conclusion is,,

i hv to FACE it..

Anyway,, thx guys coz reading it.. =)